God is Great! God is Good!

So, in the last blog I posted and asked for prayers for my wife and I, and for those of you who did, thank you very much. Our prayers were answered. During the time we had alone we talked a lot about what we were going to do. A lot of things were talked about and kind of thrown around. We figured, if both of us were out of work we would have more time to serve Him. We planned on getting more involved, whether it be in our church or just in our community, we were going to hit the streets and get His work done. Well, just a little back story if you haven't read the last blog.

My wife has been sick since last August off and on, and for the last 3 weeks straight, she hasn't been able to work. She works in Care Giving, elderly and people that are recovering from illnesses and injuries, with what she had, which ended up being Walking Pneumonia, was not good for her to be around her residents.  For a while now the job has been taking it's toll on her, she has been in care giving for about 15 years now, so in hopes to take some time off, she turned in her two week notice.  The next day I found out from my work, that my job through the Temp agency that has me working at a local college, will be ending this month.  I had hoped to work til at least end of spring term, and taking Summer off to be able to spend time with the kids and not have to pay for a baby sitter. Well, as soon as I found out I was losing my job I let my wife know, and automatically she called her work and asked to take her 2 week notice back. They said no.

To take a quick break, I felt this was a huge test for me. In the past when I wasn't making money for my family I would get depressed, upset, frustrated that I wasn't supporting my family, but all I can do is laugh with this situation.  I find it funny, my heart has been softened, and every time I think of the situation I laugh. My wife turns in her 2 week notice and then the next day I lose my job.

Well, my wife finally felt better that she could go into work, she sat down with 3 of her managers and they told her they talked to the corporate office and they didn't want to lose her, so instead of leaving completely they are allowing her to be On Call, meaning whenever they need someone they will call her, and to be able to stay on the pay roll all she has to do is work 2 or 3 days every 60 or so days. And that's not all, there is more to that, keep reading and you will see.

After my weekend and week of work telling people that I would be leaving in a week, and had the same reaction every where I went, no one wants me to leave, my manager wants me to apply for the actual job so I will be working for them so I can stay. Well after my weekend I come back to find out that the reason I was leaving was being looked into. Temps can only work 1300 hours or 6 months, whichever comes first, which was weird because even though during winter break and spring break I wasn't working, those counted towards my 6 months.  Well, I come to find out, which I actually haven't fully figured it all out but my boss told me that I could stay til Summer.

Such great news and all I can do is thank you all for prayer and thank Him.  God has a plan for you, for me, for everyone. His job is to test me, He is in complete control, and finally, I feel I have learned what it means to Let Go and Let God. I feel so blessed and touched. Give your life to Him. Be in His word daily. Thank him for every little thing in your life. Ask him to bless you and your family, your friends, ask Him to watch over everyone you love. He will never give you anything you can't handle. I will repeat that to end this. He will NEVER give you anything you can't handle.

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Sorry for the time away

          I am extremely sorry for not blogging earlier. I started this, hoping to be able to blog every day. I was over achieving obviously, I don't have a computer at home or the internet, only can blog at work during breaks and lunch, but honestly, those are all excuses.  Honestly I have been struggling with myself, upset with myself. It's hard to explain, I haven't exactly fallen from His grace, I guess, just fallen from His purpose.  For the last month I have not been reading His word, I have been going to church, but that's not enough. I haven't been living my life for him, I have been living my life for me, watching movies, playing video games, finding whatever else out there to idolize than to be spending my time in prayer and thanking and worshiping Him.  I feel depressed, upset, that I have let him down.  Talked it over with a few friends, talked it over with my wife, and only I can change my ways. My church is doing the Bread Project, which is reading the bible in a year together, I used to be able to follow along, read daily, if not every few days and catch up, but I have been so far behind, to catch up I would have to read from Duet. 1 to 22 or so, and each day I kept picking up my bible I would put it back down, discouraged about having to catch up, not wanting just to start on the day we were on.  So, instead, on my phone I have a bible app that has many reading plans to go through, so I picked about 5 or 6, one is a year plan, the others are 14 to 21 day plans, and I can set reminders to remind myself to read. So far it has gone great, I didn't get a chance to read this morning though, Friday's I work early, but again, that is an excuse, I could have waken up at 6 and started reading.

         Now to move on a bit, God works in mysterious ways, and His way is right and we just need to go with the flow. Hard to do I know, I know more than anyone, I am the kind of person that if I don't have control of the situation or can do anything about it I get upset or freak out. It's in my human nature, but it is not of my Godly nature which I need to focus on more. Let go and let God.  I am being tested right now on my works of letting go and letting God. My wife has been sick for about 3 weeks straight, well, technically been sick since August, off and on, and 10 years of care giving is taking it's toll, well after prayer and talking to friends we decided it was time for her to quit. She's going to take some time off. So two days ago she turned in her two week notice. Well, our plan was for me to work and her to stay home, with only one income the state will help us out more, lower our rent, give us more food stamps and hopefully we can catch up. So I must add, that was OUR plan, not HIS plan. What was in his plan was, the next day I went to work to find out that my 6 months as a temp at my job is up soon, in about a week and a half to be exact. Now, usually I would be upset, freaking out, telling my wife to go get her job back, but, I refuse to let Satan take over.  Honestly, when I found out, I chuckled in my head, and every time I think about it I just laugh. Everyone asks if I will be ok, of course I will be ok, everyone asks if I am ok with losing my job, well, it is what it is, God has bigger and better plans for me.

So I end this with a few notes. Hopefully I will be able to blog more, just from my phone, hopefully He speaks to me and helps me along.  Please pray for me and my family as we go through this time in our lives. God is love. God Bless you Brother and Sisters in Christ. We are all God's Children whether we know it or not, He is always there.