Where The Story Begins / Happy Anniversary To My Wife

Thank you faithful readers for following me and reading my blogs. This one is special, because today is a special day.
Throughout your life you have many moments that just stick with you for the rest of your life, moments that are memorable. Today will mark the day that a year ago I married the love of my life, my partner in crime. I remember watching her come down the aisle as her adopted father, a man I greatly look up to, walked her down the aisle. I remember holding her hands as we listened to our dear friend marry us, staring into her eyes, crying because she is crying and because of the moment.
Let's go back a little bit, only because there is so much more to this story, that has to do with my walk with Christ. If it wasn't for her I wouldn't be where I am. I tell her often. It is because of her that I know God. If it weren't for her I would be a part-part-time parent, letting my parents raise my daughter when she wasn't with her mother. I would be sitting on the computer playing World of Warcraft til like 3 in the morning, and getting up about 10 for work.
When I finally got out of the addiction of World of Warcraft, and yes, it is an addiction, I have seen it tear through relationships and marriages and witnessed myself what it did to me. I started looking online afterwards for companionship, and after many attempts I found my wife. We talked for a bit, she lived a bit of a way from me, but whenever I could I would go see her.  Some nights I would stay, go to church with her on Sundays, and that's when it started.
At church I always felt the pastor was talking to me. I always walked away with something, but I never really held onto it, but for that one day it would touch me. After about 3 months she broke up with me, complicated situation, she loved me, but in my opinion she was just afraid of what I was offering, because after 1 month I was ready to move in and start a life with her. I was moving too fast honestly, and I can admit that, it's what I did, all the time.
Before we broke up though we went to a day at the park called Willamette Celebration, where there were a bunch of stuff, stages and bands that were Christian. There even was a skate park set up and a bmx ramp set up where some Christian extreme sports people were showing off and preaching on Him. I was excited.
I started getting ideas that somehow, someway, I want to let youth know that God is much more than bible and church. I want to show them that there are rappers, rockers, skaters and other extreme sports. That is where my previous blog about my ideas came from.
All of that plus my want to become the leader of my household all started and continues to grow, because of my wife. She is my rock, the one that holds me down. We may argue, we may fight, do and say stupid things, but we love eachother no matter what. Through Christ we can do anything. Next blog I will write about a few things I am doing in my life to help me become a spiritual leader in my household.
Thank you all and God bless.



*Horrible ... I didn't get around to publishing this til now.. I did read it to my wife on the day of our anniversary*

Baptizem!!!!!

So, been gone for a long while, not gonna get into why, because for one, I would be repeating myself from previous posts, and two, today is a spectacular special day....


Many years ago, so long ago I don't even remember, sometime between age 8 and 13 I was baptized, sounds bad but the only way I can put it is I was forced to. I didn't fight it, so it does sound bad, but I got baptized because my dad wanted me baptized.  So now, today, at the age of 20... ok, 29, soon to be 30, I am dedicating my life to Christ, not really re-dedicating, because when I first got baptized, I did not have Jesus in my heart, in my life. I did not go to church but maybe once a month, I never read the bible, the closest I got to worshiping the Lord was listening to Jars of Clay or DC Talk, but also I was listening to Tool and Marilyn Manson.

Now, being a Christian does not mean you must ALWAYS go to church, always read your bible, always pray, but I can tell you now, it does help. If I were to die today, not being baptized again, I would still be accepted to heaven, because I have accepted Jesus as my Father, as my Savior, I don't read my bible daily, but on the days that I don't, there is a huge difference, when I don't pray, I feel disconnected from Him.

Some are confused why anyone would get re-baptized, we all have our own reasons, mine, I have a few, I was so young I did not understand what it meant to give my life to Him, to trust in Him in everything. My main reason to be baptized again is not to become clean of all my sins, I have asked for forgiveness, He has forgiven me, daily. My biggest part of wanting to do this is to show my family and friends, my Church family, that I have chosen Christ as my savior and I want to share this moment with all of them.

For those of you who can't be there, pray for me, as I pray for you, and for all of those coming to see, thank you, this is one of those moments that is going to stick with me for the rest of my life, I will remember forever, and luckily to boot, it is being done at the same park I gave my life to my Wife, we got married at the same park. I will try and blog more, write out my thoughts, my going ons and what not, but no guarantees, just like my baptism, does not mean I will automatically read daily, never sin again and just get hit with a white light and understand everything about God my father, but, it is a start to the continuation to a beautiful relationship between me and Him, and I would like to share that with you all.

God is Love.