Let Go and Let God

Well I thought I could try to do this everyday, but between trying to get my college application in and hosting a showing of Courageous at my home church yesterday, as well as work, hasn't been working out too well, but I have had these thoughts collecting for the last few days. One of my biggest hurdles I have to get over, as many people do, is to Let Go and Let God. For a while I have had an idea for a tattoo that hopefully one day I will be able to get. It is a tattoo on my back I would like Gods hands, and in one hand it will say Let Go and the other will say Let God. Without any thought or noticing there have been many times He has helped me when I Let Go. A time that comes to mind is when our family car died, still don't know what is wrong with it, but it has issues. Well, without even prayer, without even thought, just knowing that God would figure something out for us, whether it be my wife getting rides to work, (I was not working at the time) or whatever, I just knew it would be taken care of. Well, no more than a few days later after posting on Facebook that our car had died, I got a call from my Dad, my Grandma, his mom, said she had an extra car because her friend had moved out of state, didn't want to take her car with her so she gave my Grandma the car, so, for completely free, not asking for anything, my Grandma gave us her old car. My wife says she prayed, but I will be honest, I did not, I just gave it to God to take care of.

Well, now is the time for the biggest test, I shouldn't say test, because we should never test God, it is not our job to test Him, I should say time for my biggest step, biggest leap of faith. In a previous blog I mentioned that one of the biggest moments that God had touched me was at Willamette Celebration, where I watched some skaters and bmxers that had given their life to Christ. Well, after a lot of praying, asking God for help to guide me into where he wants me to be, what he wants me to do, I have decided to try to go to a prominent Christian College in my state. I am excited, nervous and just humble that this is the way things are going. I have had my FAFSA for college help filled out for about 2 years now, and every time I go to sign up for a term at a close by community college to take some business and accounting classes, I keep missing the deadline, never have the money to pay for an application, missing certain things turned in, one after another reason it just was not working out. I felt after all that failure, at the start of this year and a little before while I was filing my FAFSA for this year that God was tugging on me to look into and put this Christian College as one of my options.

After talking it over with my wife, and discussing that was a huge leap and not really possible, I explained to her it would be maybe 5 years or so down the line, after I did a couple to a few years at the community college maybe then I would be ready for this Christian College. But after thought and prayer, and the dreams and premonitions God has been giving my wife, letting her know that we are not meant to be comfortable in life, and in ways preparing her for a huge move in her life, which ended up preparing me as well and helped us both decide as soon as we can maybe we should take the leap. I finally got my FAFSA approved for this year and it says I have been approved for the Fall term of 2012. A little discouraged because I had planned on going back in Summer term, but once I stopped and thought about it, if I start in Fall term and it does include a move away from our home, our kids would start a new school in a new school, and not maybe have to be moved in between a school year. Well, right now I am working on reaching out, I have made contact with the college, received a welcome packet, been emailing an Admissions Adviser back and forth, set up a date that I can go visit the college this month. I want to do this right. We can pray and ask for God to help us, but if we don't do any work then nothing will be done. He doesn't want us just to sit back and pray and ask for help, it helps, but unless you are in His Word, doing His will, not sitting back on your laurels, He will listen to you and Bless you, if it is in His Will.

So I kinda went off on a tangent, but my idea, well ideas, is I would like to open an indoor skate park, it will be a faith based establishment, where I plan to have possibly Sunday service, one or two day a week youth group/bible study, during the summer maybe like a camp kind of thing. I would also like to have my own Christian clothing line, and Christian record label. All of these things are just kind of bouncing around, it is my prayers that God will allow me to show the youth who He is through one or two if not all of these ways, but it is not up to me, He has a plan for me, and it is my job to listen and do His Will, for all I know, for all anyone knows, I may not even do any of these things. I hope you are all feeling Blessed and stay in His Word.